Things I'm learning

It's funny. I always thought I "knew" the leassons that I have always been taught throughout the years. From my parents and grandparents, from my religion, from life in general. But only recently I learned that you really don't learn a lesson until you actually experience it. And as I sit here today I have found those life lessons that were taught to me, I'm finally learning.
The big one is "Let go, Let God" You know I have heard that a million times throughout life and always felt that I did that. Till now, Now I'm actually learning what it means to be faced with something that you seriously have no control over. And where you HAVE to let go, because you will drive yourself crazy if you don't. How it becomes apparent that the only thing you can do is to Let God do his work. Pray and Pray and continue to pray. But mostly to let God do his work. That's a hard one for me. Prayers used to come in the form of asking God to do something specific....Heal someone, do this do that. Nowadays the prayers consitent more of asking God to do his work. And to give me the strength to trust that he will do what it is that he finds the right answer. I want the peace now to trust him. Really trust him. Not the trust where you say it but not mean it. There's a difference. And I'm realizing that as well. I can only ask that I can do my part and do what it is that God would ask of me. And let me do it to the best of my ability. All else is up to him. I can not heal my son. Lord knows I would do anything it takes to do it. But the fact remains I can't. I have to let go and let god. So I ask God everyday to give me the strength. To guide me in the right direction. To guide and watch over the surgeons who we put the lives of our children in. Guide them to do God's work. And ask God to comfort and protect Trenton while he endures this pain. And to give me the strength to allow it all to happen. The Serenity Pray...Which follows the same lesson. Accept the things I can not change. Yeah that's it. Accept it. And then the wisdom to know the difference. I think I am learning that as well.
So another thing I've learned is that Life really is a journey. To it there is no straight path that you can take. That is for sure. All the plannng in the world would have NEVER lead me to this path. And I really don't believe I was lost either. I think that I have a reason for being here and God knows that reason as well. This road is not the easy road. But more and more I'm seeing that I would not want it any other way. For all things there is a reason and I will also need to trust that. Find the peace in that. And that God will see us through this trying time and on the other side of this pothole in the road I am traveling we will all be better people for it. Trusting in God and his ability better, and trusting in ourselves more with what we can achieve. And happy to have learned the lessons.